1.21.2012
On our way...
1.10.2012
His Other Blanket - and Her Message from the Lord?
12.17.2011
In Front of the Tree - 2011
As I look over the pictures, the children growing...
...the number of children in our family growing...
...what is not seen is how the Lord was working "behind the scenes" - growing us spiritually.
I don't even feel like the same person, or same mama...
...that I was back then. Praise you, LORD, that you are continually working on us...you never leave us or forsake us! And praise Him that He loves us too much to leave us in that same condition - he's always working and refining.
And though I had certainly hoped that our family picture would look different by Christmas time this year..
...this is how it looks in 2011. And I would be blind to miss seeing how absolutely perfect this picture is:
And though I had lost/given up my peace the last few weeks due to the uncertainties of this current adoption...
12.12.2011
Miscellany Monday: December 12, 2011
12.11.2011
Open Hands
Well, surprise...he didn't.
This adoption has become very hard for me. It started out very easy. The paperwork was much easier than with our previous adoptions...and I did feel so peaceful. "Did". Past tense.
That flew out the window.
I've made attempts to regain that peace over the past month or so. And it works...for a while.
I'm so ready for all the unknowns to be known. All the uncertainties to now be certain. And - most of all - I'm ready for that precious little brown baby boy who we know is supposed to be in our arms at some point...I'm ready for him to be in our arms now.
So, I "threw out a fleece" for the Lord. I told Him that Dec. 9th would be perfect.
But, obviously, it wasn't a perfect plan. Because that wasn't His plan.
Many are the plans in a man’s heart,
but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails. (Proverbs 19:21)
And I really do know and believe deep in my heart of hearts that the Lord's plan is perfect and His timing is perfect. I have no question that He is working all this out according to His will.
I just want to know what that perfect will is. When that perfect will will come to pass.
I memorized the above scripture a long time ago...because this wanting/needing to know and be in control of things has been a struggle of mine for a long time. I still haven't learned, obviously.
But I want to. Oh, how I want to. And I know that the Lord is working on this in me during this adoption process too. **He** is the ultimate multi-tasker - working on the sanctification process in me (and the other members of my family, too) WHILE he is working out every detail of bringing Gabriel into our family.
What the children are learning personally - and what they're learning by watching us - as we travel this adoption road again...it is invaluable.
I have lots of questions. From big, theoretical questions....to practical details questions. Concerns, worries, frettings. But I need to remember (for good) that He has everything - down to the last little detail - under control. He won't work everything out...but, (oh no!) forget one little thing over there...
He's got it. Really and truly got it.
As I had a good, tear-filled heart-to-heart with the Lord on Friday (during the children's rest time) at one point I physically just held my hands out, empty palms up, to the Lord.
I give Him all of it. The plans. The details. The control.
Truth is, it never was mine anyway.
We sang this in church this morning...I love it:
In this adoption - in every area of my life - I need to open my hands to the Lord.
11.29.2011
Getting Ready: Gabriel's Accessories
Next, our dear friends, the S Family, are letting us use their high chair. I do not have a picture of it here because they are also kind enough to store it for us at their house until such time as we actually need it! Love you, Melissa!
And this little playmat I actually just got from Kami at church last night. It's a 3-in-1 deal: Gabriel can play on his back with the hangie-down thingies, have tummy time, AND it converts into a tunnel he can crawl through when that time comes.
And the final two "new-to-us" accessories come from my dear friend, Shanna. Shanna had her third precious child 7 months ago now, and has just passed some of Natalie's things on to us, like this swing...
...and this bouncy seat:
11.26.2011
Getting Ready: Gabriel's Room
And then next to the crib is this beautiful and oh-so-comfy glider rocker from my brother Jeff and sis-in-law Mandi.
And on the wall above the glider rocker are these two little shelves. We've had them for years and when I mentioned to Vicki that I would repaint them white or red or blue, she said "Every room needs a splash of black." So, that advice - combined with the fact that I'm always in favor of the easiest option (not repainting!) - they're still black!
I'll start with the curtains. Laoli and I sewed them in anticipation of E's arrival over 7 years ago. It's the only thing I've ever sewed and we had so much fun making these! I knew exactly what I wanted and couldn't find it...AND I didn't have 4 children then so I could take time to do projects like that!
Under the window is this "picket fence" bookcase made before Elisabeth came home.
11.21.2011
Getting Ready: Filling Up the Freezer
Italian Pasta Bake
1 pound ground beef or turkey
1/4 cup chopped onion or 3 Tablespoons dry minced onion
4 cups tomato sauce (I doubled this recipe. I used one 29-oz can tomato sauce, and one quart of tomatoes that Kris and I had canned)
2 cups water
2 Tablespoons basil
1 Tablespoon oregano
1 teaspoon garlic powder or one clove fresh garlic
Sea salt to taste
10 ounces whole wheat pasta, any shape (I used bow-tie)
2 cups shredded cheese
Brown meat and onion together. Meanwhile, bring tomato sauce, water and herbs and spices to a boil. Stir in pasta and boil until tender. Do not drain. The pasta should have absorbed the liquid! Mix in cooked meat. Salt as desired. Spread mixture into a 9×13 casserole dish and top with cheese. Bake uncovered at 350° for 25 minutes or until cheese is melted and the casserole is heated through and through.